By God's perfect plan and perfect timing, this Mother's Day is really for me! It's my turn! I will be on the stage for my SON'S baby dedication! I will have my husband tell me "Eli... Say, 'Happy Mother's Day' to your Mommy." Not only that, I have two Chinese "daughters" this Mother's Day, too! Triple mommy blessings this year! Although I am celebrating being a mom, there are three other moms missing their babies.
I can't overlook the fact that the Lord has entrusted me with mothering three children (my baby son and my two teenage Chinese "daughter" exchange students). I am honored that Rachel and Helena's moms have allowed me to take care of their daughters for the school year. I am also honored that Eli's birthmom allowed me to take care of Eli for the rest of his life!
Blessed and grateful! I am SO blessed and SO grateful that Eli's birthmom gave me the gift of being a mom for the very first time!!!!!!!! One of the reason's our birthmom picked us is because she wanted to bless a childless family with a child. That is love! She wanted her child to bless others. Eli sure has done that! Eli has blessed our lives in so many ways! Eli's birthmom has a HUGE place in my heart forever. I hope I can thank her in person one day for choosing me to be her son's mom through adoption. Her decision is so brave, courageous, admirable, sacrificial, and loving!To those who are reading this and are wanting to barf because you are where I once was, you're not alone and God really does have a plan... a plan that is bigger and better than you could ever plan yourself. That sounds so blah blah blah, I know, but it's so true! I used to think what you are thinking. No matter what, God really does have a plan for you. Trust Him and give it completely to Him. Child or no child, you have to lean on Jesus. Allow Him to be in control of your life and life's situation no matter what. I know that this is not only an envious time, but it is a hurting time. Let God be the one to heal your heart by filling the mommy void with Himself. Leaning on God is what sustained and uplifted me throughout my journey to motherhood. That's where true joy on Mother's Day comes from.
